I have this ‘friend’, let’s just call her N. She told me 2 write a 5 page long essay abot gears… For tomorrow!!

What a bitch! I can’t do that! I don’t even know what to write!! I hate her right now. That fat, cutesy, powerpuff girl gone wrong!!! I hate her so much!!

I hate her guts until the ends of the pits of hell. N, if ur reading this, you don’t understand anyway. U can’t speak english!! God Damn You!

Gw baru slese nonton termehek-mehek di TransTv. Ceritanya ada org namanya Bimo, papanya ninggalin keluarganya katany bwt cari nafkah. Tapi hbs 4 thn si Bimo nanya keadaan papanya sama tantenya, katanya papanya dah married lagi! Trus dy ksh tw ibunya sama adiknya, ibunya shock sampai akhirnya meninggal, adiknya jg sama. Pas ketemu ama papanya, Bimo ngajak papanya ketemu dgn ibu dan adikny yaitu di kuburan. si bapak nyesel dan berakhirlah episode kali ini. Pas dah abis si Panda bilang ‘Mungkin sekarang kamu dengan keluargamu, lengkap, tetaplah lengkap dan terus bersama…’ Gw g tw seterusnya krn gw nangis.

Gw denger kata ‘keluarga’ sama ‘lengkap’ gw langsung nangis. Gw balik ke kamar gw trus nerusin tangisan gw. Papa mama pergi kerja, kakak juga sibuk dgn kerjaannya di kamarnya. Masa cuma gw sih? Sekarng gw dah g nangis lagi, mata gw dingin kalo nutup mata.

Hari ini gw chatting ama kenalan dari amrik, dy 16 thn abis sklh di skul militer, disana pacarnya meninggal saat latihan. I may found someone.

thx 4 reading.

as if there’s anyone reading this.

Today, my muse almost took control. Jennifer, the psycothic angst muse. She almost made me do something really horrible. I started to see flashes of killings and stuff like that. And all that thanks to Sergio, and I’m not even going to use a fake name this time. You could check his friendster profile if you want, though he haven’t logged in ’cause he’s more of a facebook guy.

He is such a jerk. A motherfucking shitheaded dickface bitch that always get on everybody’s nerves. He isn’t wanted by anyone to join a group if there’s a group project. That’s because he’s an ass!! he never worked, he doesn’t do anything but goof around, and I have the urge to kill him more than once today. TODAY.

I have to pray to keep Jennifer at bay. It’s really hard ’cause the class is really noisy. I don’t know if I have mental problems or not, but I don’t believe it. Cause my mom is a psychistrist, she’ll know if there’s something wrong with me. But, I’m more comfortable if I talk to anyone I don’t know. Maybe you.

Let’s get off the current subject, I’ve just finished watching Constantine. And it was AWESOME!!! I love Constantine!! I LOVE KEANU REEVES!! Oh, and I totally dig Gabriel, he/she ( I don’t really know ’cause angels are supposed to have no genders) is so cool!!! I want to cosplay like that if I could. And the hair!! I want wings like that… It’s awesome

Dear blog,

I think my ‘friends’ hates me. I think the world hates me too. Maybe It’s because of my sin. No, not those small sins but THE SIN. I don’t know if I should carry out this sin another second. I am on the brink of suicide. But I don’t want 2 die alone.

I know my parents love me, but when I’m away from them I get really lonely. I don’t think S is my real friend, she’s really mean. Or is it just my ego talking? How much of this pain should I take? My family is broken, my mom hates my big sis, she doesn’t even wan’t 2 meet her more or less talk 2 her, why can’t my mom b more open-minded? I mean she’s a psychiatrist 4 God’s sake!! So what if my sis married outside of our religion? I know mayb my sis did somthing awful, mayb she made a mistake, but when I saw her photo w/ her baby, she looked really happy. Dad thinks so 2 and I’m happy about that.

This is is a harsh world, anything could turn from bad 2 worst in a matter of moments.

Written by Megan Marianne Crossheart

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Td wkt ul mtk w g bisa!!!! Padahal dah blajar smalem suntuk!!!! Gw msh inget rumus2ny, tp w terlalu gugup ampe lupa…

Mana td ada 2 soal yg jwbanny kebalik lg!! Ih gila, Pak Budi. kl bpk misalkan membaca nih blog, saya hany mo blg; MTK TUH SUSAH BGT APA LAGI KL BPK YG NGAJAR!!!!!!!

Btw, I cried after school because of that stupid math test. It’s not the first time I’ve cried because of math. The evil ‘M’ is wut I call the subject. I actually thought of hanging myself or cutting myself because of what I was feeling back then. But now I’m ok, I’ve just finished watching TV and everything’s all good.

So, thx if u hav been reading this, and srry for all math lovers…. NOT!!

So, I’m trying to surf the web in peace, and my neighbor is having a house party. And I am definatly not in peace…

They didn’t invite me! They didn’t even invite my bro (well, that’s understandable actually..) The ‘young adults’ living there are my bro’s childhood friends. Although I don’t really knew them, atleast turn the music down! Btw, I bought a new earpiece for my ipod, it’s black. And my mom bought me sciccors, it’s a kiddy sciccors!! It’s got cow prints on the blades!!! Well, atleast I don’t have to borrow from my friends anymore…

I’m bored.

DAMMNITT!!! Duh… tgs agama w blm mulai sama skali!!! Gmn nh??!!

Yg punya handycam/sutradara/writer g bisa dikontak!!!!!! Tai.

(sigh) I wish I was a cat. So that I could laze around all day, eat all day, and practically don’t do anything much all day.

Y’know what? SCREW SCHOOL!! I already said that when it was exam season… hehehe… Anyway, I am kinda excited cause there’s a movie on october 10th (my mom’s birthday) but I forgot what it is… I remember that I was really excited about it… Oh well, I’m like that sometimes. Anyway (again), I don’t have any inspiration about how the hell I was going to update my stories and/or my art. Oh and I get bored easily, if there’s nothing else to do I usually sleep with my cat.

I miss my cat, he’s gone somewhere. Probably looking for a mate or two. My cat’s a playboy!