I feel so lonely. Nobody cares about me, the classmates that I thought was my friend treats me like I’m invisible, like I’m nothing! And I thought I finally have friends. There’s this group I hang out with, there are a total of 5 girls in that group not including me, the leader, E, is like this over confident girl who always want everything to go her way. C, is the girl who sit next to me, she once was a lonely girl too, until she joined this group and became like the leader too! Then there’s a girl, O, she’s cool, kinda alone sometimes, but E always treats her like she’s her bestfriend! Then there’s R, she is this smart and sensitive girl in the group. I actually envy her because she could show her emotion to her ‘friends’ like they are going to stick together forever, she cried more than once in front of her friends who isn’t her BEST friend. I would never be caught crying at school in front of my schoolmates, for me that is like showing to people that you’re weak. But, the fact is, I am weak, but I don’t show them.
I’m giving a motherfucking speech here, and for once, I would like to be treated like everyone else in the group E! Once, just once I would want to be treated like I’m a part of something, that something is this group that WILL NOT STICK TOGETHER E!! Just once, I would like to feel acepted, to feel friendship.
I know you sometimes read my blogs, E! I want you to know what I feel inside! the hurt I’ve been feeling but never got the chance to tell it to anyone, please, even though you would probably be to busy with your facebook, please, hear my request. And could you please tell your friend, V, to not act like a pain in the ass to anyone, not just me?
I’m sorry if this may be hurtful. E but this is the absolute truth. I know maybe you wouldn’t want to be my friend anymore, heck, you were just my classmate from the beginnning right? But, if you manipulated your group to not talk to me, or avoid me, that just proves what I’ve been talking about in this blog.
So, what are you going to do? And will it be the right choice?